As of this past Wednesday, I am one year older. I dread it every year because I hate birthdays. I hate it because I don’t like the attention nor do I like getting one year older.
I don’t have any problems with getting older, but it’s just another day like New Year’s where it forces me to reflect on the past 365 days.
Did I do anything good with my life this past year?
Did I contribute anything useful to society?
How are my relationships with my friends and family?
And it bums me out if there are things I wasn’t happy about.
I know I should use these negative things and find ways to turn them around but one of my flaws is focusing on the negative a little too much.
I know this isn’t anything new and it’s something I've been struggling with for a long time now.
I just need to focus on the positive and the long road ahead instead of the shitty things that bring me down.
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